When in wrong hands.

whateven good suppose to happennever hapoen, Only bad hapoens. when hesrtless older ones seems to be the Older Siblings. Unale to nurtire or guide the young ones . Only trying their best to perfect tbe young ones, they think, lousy. But creating very bad situations in tbe name of Correcting tbe young one.I was shocked when coountless of women in tbe name of older inlaws marrying the family men worshipped by these ladies or olse Siblings, infact they hvnt learnt or taught rhw basic needs or manners in life. Tbdy seems to bebthe strong infkyencers in ctreatimg unlhealthy situations for the younger siblings. Due to getting the suppport and encouragemwnt from the powerful inlaws.. who being little the studiues and hard worming younger ones whom they hv been burdened unneccessarily and treated wrongl by the great Siblings Every situation is created firbtheur own vwnwfit and msking this younger girl as a bait abd as a piece of Humour.. To rbw world and Community They are the world . But to the little ones they are rudeless ,inhuman , heartless ones in tbe nanw of guardian...

Weird experiences gain thru older Siblings.

Though I was growing up as kg Child. The food and clothing were class.As long i lived in Village house the best simple living environment. home grown,fruits and vegeies were Consuming. The day I joined my older Siblings house,gone my happiness and freedom. My dressing, my food, my life everythung was decided by them. The worst emotions i ever Come across. The own sister seems like a stranger.Like an unknown person. Squating with.older Sibling for SPM exam, so I could pass and get a job. This was every Older siblings wish. none oc them thiught about sending me to school for preuni education.Non of them, either sdviced me or asked me to do oart time Cources. I was stsrted esrning, thre vomes my suster advicing me and asking me to give her monthly for my future. Another brother working n living in Ipih, whatever he esrns not enough for him self. The bigger dmount of money saved thru monthly Contribution as Koottu taken by him according to my sister. she never asked me if I want to give. she said he asked and i gave him, to get a car. When i asked him he said he didnt take money frm my sister for the car. no o e give me money.Great life lessons lesrnt thru loosimg hard earned mo ey cheated by iwn older Siblings who are not willing to to see me studying form 6. Family gathetings were another situations vcreated to steal money. The weird feelings , emotions and being Victimized by own older siblings in the name of family , love and gathetings. Since the only younger suster works as Teacher in Governemt Sector , tbeir imagination went beyond the Sky abt my earningd or income ,which O hv bern getyimg only few hundreds. Accomodation is free no need to pay , but fir the one night stsy and food i need tp give 350 ringgit to them. My kidsboth were very young kids cant eat much they are one of the good kids among them.Wvery fanikt fatheri gd im robbed by the heartless so called Older siblings. Few abd many of tbem are exceptional, no need to pay. my.ekdest brotber withnhus familt, Mt ekdest sistwr n ger bigger family. Tne 2 nd suster will be charginf certain amount od mo ey fur rbe titbits amd fruits they broght along. Candies and Wajik made by 2nd sister are sold there. During one gatheting, all rbe kids and my sekf were left alone in.an.soartment we wete staying. around 4 pm all.tbe susters abd Dusyer inlaw went out in two cars leaving me tge only lafy with all theur children, Cameback after 4 hours. The girks were swimming in the swimming pool accompanied by their uncles. All of a sudden my 2nd suster saw a stranger in tne pool talking to her daughrervwho was in two piece Swim suit bought by her mom. She strated scoldinf me abd shouting aloud, yiu as an aunt not responsibke of takung xare of yiur neice. I trusted you n left her in your care. sge is tbere talking to a stranger n you are not bothered. I shiwed to her my brothers who are with them, telling see lah akka, All her uncjes are with the neice in.tbe pool, why you worry fir no reason. They are with her im wstching them, for long.. Sgecwas still angry . A responsibke mothers duty is to take care of her daughter. When she has been, looked after, if catn thank her just keeo quite, dnt ruined her day by scolding her for no reason. Mistake is hers but being victimized is the younger Sibling.. when anyone in wrong hands even tbe good seems like wrong. Victimizing them for no reason.

The reason my My points droped.

furst year in IPBA.with Half salary ,I was visiting my kids, 3 times a week. My dsughter was in furm 1 Son was in year 6. I dntvwa t my kids to.miss my presence , So i was visiting then on Tuesdsys after class, and thursdaydays. the following morning,I leave house at 5.30 am to Catch the first bus st 6.00 am to KL.by 7.10 i get down at cetrsl.market n get the Lembsh psntsi bus abd mz aged to attend lecture at 8.30 am.Agsin on friday after lecture get back to my house to meet my kids. Non of my beigjbours knows or aware about my study in Iium as a full time student leaving mh family hete.

Best gift from God for

I belueve my oure hesrts wishes all camebtrue. i wanted to pursue degree. and im.a seeker of Knowledge. God gave me a chance of life time to pursue degree in.a very Condusive 5 Star University in Malaysia. A girl who was neglected, lookeddiwn., underrsted by her own ilder Siblings. The good samaritans in.zeducation line, from Ministry of Education, Singke room, VIP Hostel Dorm, shated with International students , whose patents are, ministets, head of the Nation,Ex Governers. retired Governar Generals Children. Cjildren of the Thai Prime ministors advisors. Chiksten of the Millioners from Africsn Countries. They all were inmthevsanw diem wuth me. The gift for being a Commited,dedicated and empathethic Teacher Served in Rural Schools in rural disrtict. At age 40 ,I was selected to pursue degree in Iium. my first sem in first year was in Temgku Ampuan Afzan Teachers training College. I was thwre one 1 sem. during the full pay and daiky 10 riggit allowance fir attebdancw. Due to the Distance and tra sportation problem. I requested to.minitries Ofgicial to be place in KLIPBA so I can ajqays visut my famy, tnats my school going childrem and hubby.. Ipba in.Lembah Pantai is the Teacher Training Institut that opens its door to Asia Pacific Countries lecturers a nd English Teachers.During my study year, here once met Asia pacific Teachers. A fijian, lady, whose appetite was shocking. The amount 3 Malaysian eat at a meal the lady, was having all by her self, 3 fried fish, a polisterin heaped with rice, cabage , 3 omelets.

Part 4 : Two different Situations

The best Solution I chose was applied Degree program and my 2ns attempt in few months fruitfull with my Certs of Cources those I attended at National level bei g a plus point to be selected to Pursue degree program in a uni where Only Merit level students are sellected to pursue. Though I coukd easily continye my preuni in a Government School, ignorance, negligwnce and not bothered attitude, and close hearted Siblings who focused only in their lifes progress was a bad environment. Such situations shouldnt be experienced by anyone. My younger sister inlaws though had a preuni educated sister inlaw, being the not botbered , ignorant, unempethethic , selfish Oldest girl in the family, unable to guide ,asssist her younger Siblings who hv been repeating form five in private school. My job and the humam v beings i met, I realize how different the parents hv been. Even the uneducated mothers wants the best for their daughters. My self being the briliant student, raised by wrong hands, who used me since my teenage days as a maid. The older sister who suppose to Provide a learning f environment, expect me to take care of her kids, same with.my older brothers. They want me to be a responsible girl, doung house work such as cleaning, cooking, taking care of the young neice. The best moments and opportunitues in.my.life came thru Educationist with whom.i hv bern working, My bosses, Co Teachers, education Officers. Attended Cources , free, of accomodations all free. including, in service cources. National level trainer , District level fasilator, State level language Teacher. National level Research symposiums. All these I attended free of charge and I developed my self thru these work shops , Cources.

One everything is pd, within close family, the Second, Work ,unlimited sacrifices

Two diffetent environment a close family knit women was facing in her life. Tjis lady since younger days was used maximum by her own older siblings, to take care of their mom, home , theur neice. 2nd environment School, where she loves going to sChool n kwarn since primary. Unfortunately she was neglected and ignored by her own older Siblings by burdening her with task beyond her Capacity. As a slave she performed all the task..Only on saturday, evening she gets chance to eat rice with sardine curry of r fish curry, cooked by her sister who comes home on weekend. In her school life, she lived a hapoy life by learning, reading helping around the school ,washing toilets, cleaning the ckass roim, plsyimg with her rfuends during recess, as earky as stadard 3. ni cjeaners abd Garderners in schools in 1970 ies. Teachers guide studebts to collect rubbush abd to do gardening. Inlt National schools had Gardeners and cleaners.Akk her Teachers sthdued her n sge vwcame all ger Teachwrs favourite , she onky reads , di ger wirl n omay duringv recess. No takling, no chatting and no Gosipping , not wasting time. Her fathers death was a misfortune in her life .

Two different situations God has given me in life after age 26

First when I.obeyef and followed everything tild to me afviced me by my older Dibkings. whst i was gaining was , exoerience self Confidence, being independent , nonexowctation, no feelings no emotions. What i was loosing, mybesrnings were Controlled , I was unabke to fet or vuy What i wiah to hv. I managed my.life abd exoences within my own Controlled , self controlled. Even after married life was just the same. just lime befire married. No expectation abd no regrets. but evenings dissapointed , when hubby goes out almost everyday and Comes home at mid night, the ecxuse given, he was in his uncles house. I started to hv my iwn hobbies aftet kids goes to bed. i syarted reading, started stitching clothes fur my.kids. ved sheets, blankets, curtains, door mats. O started to keep my hiuse as ckean as I can abd started to fix, loveky curtains which i stitch my self. Small giuse neatmy kept, kids taken good Care. As my jids started growing up. More cincetn shown by daddy, he biught samval n curries several tyoes frm outside during lunch hour. At times i fekt ,as a mom , im not neefed in rjis house, wjen ge started buying curry n sambal wvetyday frm restayrabts, evwn though i hv ciiked several meals daily. purposeky he was buying and g.feeding my kindrfarden children. I realize. famik ly needs onky 1 mother and not 2. Si I started attending cources related to my profession whenever requesterd by school admind. He starts fight almost daily for no reason, At ti