Two different situations God has given me in life after age 26

First when I.obeyef and followed everything tild to me afviced me by my older Dibkings. whst i was gaining was , exoerience self Confidence, being independent , nonexowctation, no feelings no emotions. What i was loosing, mybesrnings were Controlled , I was unabke to fet or vuy What i wiah to hv. I managed my.life abd exoences within my own Controlled , self controlled. Even after married life was just the same. just lime befire married. No expectation abd no regrets. but evenings dissapointed , when hubby goes out almost everyday and Comes home at mid night, the ecxuse given, he was in his uncles house. I started to hv my iwn hobbies aftet kids goes to bed. i syarted reading, started stitching clothes fur my.kids. ved sheets, blankets, curtains, door mats. O started to keep my hiuse as ckean as I can abd started to fix, loveky curtains which i stitch my self. Small giuse neatmy kept, kids taken good Care. As my jids started growing up. More cincetn shown by daddy, he biught samval n curries several tyoes frm outside during lunch hour. At times i fekt ,as a mom , im not neefed in rjis house, wjen ge started buying curry n sambal wvetyday frm restayrabts, evwn though i hv ciiked several meals daily. purposeky he was buying and g.feeding my kindrfarden children. I realize. famik ly needs onky 1 mother and not 2. Si I started attending cources related to my profession whenever requesterd by school admind. He starts fight almost daily for no reason, At ti

Part 3 : God listens .....

Form four, the only one frm my class, to join tne ACS clan group. Being a stra ger, in my clas among the wel taken care sthdebts by their parents. Tne only one dkinny sbd frahe gking to.school emty stomach. buy 30 cebts pisang goreng and eat.Back frm,school , strsit to garden, oluck young coconut frm short tree, drink.tbe water duri g lunch n fir dnetgy, then.start to cook fir mom n susterunch, dimole soup, or dry fish sambal n rice. buy 20 cents dry fish frm nearby grocessary shop. fry it, add cjilli piwder and onions , add little salt n tamarind juice, to the gravy n heat it. after my brorher back frm school he adds white rice with, dry fish sambal and eats his lunch.At times white rice with fried tapioca. After having mealK, take our goats fir grazing in tbe rubber estate at back of our house. I take along the boiled rice water,as light meal.The goats I tied to the trees with long rope, i sat under a tree and started to read my school text book of Geography or history which I take with me . Every half an hour the goats are changed the grazing spots, so they can continuesly get to eat the ferns and weeds. when i feel,hungry I drink the boiled rice water.Time is precious and too many task, need to be completed in limited time, so, I utilise my time wisely as quality time. We had a jack fruit tree which bears juicy sweet fruits . The flesh ,I used to make sweet Payasam. tbe seeds are coiked in curry n est with white rice. Most of tge times we ate the fruits flesh. At times tbe boiked seeds are eaten as evening snack . i was vv avtive abd enegetic those days. very easily i could complete long distanst run.I was state runner in form 4 easily daily i train.4 km.with my neighbour n chiltdhood class mate .

Part 2 God listen to pure n innocents missery

The following year in September akka gave birth to twin girls. Since we all hv been living a better life in our environment close to the town. We never imagine marrying off our eldest sister to an estate worker.If dad has been Akive Duster wiykd hv been.marrued off to a better family n would hv live peaceful and safe life. when the younger ones being tne decission makers, the Victims are the weaker ones. Si her marruage was somethimg not Cherished by us the you fest sisters. But my brother inlaw was a very caring abd lovung brither inlaw. since he lost his parents at a young age n living alone. My sekf and mom becane tbe xarevtajer of his twins.Age 15 carrying the baby for immunisation. everyine in tbe bus stare at me, surprisingly. A teenage girl carrying a baby alobe to the clinic. I was asked by my two brothers to take caee of the babies full timw apart frm.school hours.Though it was neither my wish or hate, but normal, my oerfirmamce in studues better n i was excellimg among others. the top girl in.my girls amo g the Tamil n Chinese school Class mates. when I passed fir. 3 Exam with 7 Syri g ctedit n gred A. tbe dhike neighbiur hoid started talking and praising me. But my brothet was not haooy Vompsrimg his fruends younger suster fully taken care by the mother scored several As. whereelse I missed 3 As n managed to get C 3 for 3 subjects. No revission books or reference books, only text books I was reading after school in school canteen with, my chinese class mate friends.

God listen to the pure n innocents hearts cry

I didnt really know about miracles, because there was no need to wirry , borher or to rhink about anything in life till afe 13. everythung qas privuded by the older siblings, without mybrequest. therecwas no need for anything. Age 14 the tesr my ekdest suster married abd moved with her husbabd almost 3 km dusrance frm our hiuse. jyst my sekf, amma abd yiubgest suster,were in.tne hiuse. 2 nd susrervwas viduting us onky on satyrday n Dunday. after school, at least twice a week, me , amma abd my you gest suster wlked to my.eldest sisters house thru, Rubber plantation, Thsts the shirt cut to akkas hiuse, on. our joyrnet we cross small natural springs. wevwash our face abd drink the fresh wster frm.the soring abd co tinue our walk. in slmost 45 minits we teached akkas house. Akka mixed ciffe fur us n.mahe some local kueh. befure narried, sge was the Chef of our famiky, non stop cooking for all of us delicious meals daily , my class mates and neighbours childdren, who ever visits our home gets to eat freshly cooked meals. after two hours spent in akkas hiuse, me, amma and youngest sister syarts our journey back home. bybthe time we reach home its nearing to dark. our wirkd was very smalk, because all the brorhers were away workimg in.out station. the 3rd brither n fourth brother , both in firm.4 n form.5. Thdy bck home after school tution abd feild activities.

1989, the new ERA in my life

1989, the new ERA in my life. My name was referred as Mrs. My first listing to southern Perak as. Trained Teacher in a Town school nearby my hubbys. Office. A good Samaritan as an education officer/ Tamil School inspector helped me upon my request and placed me in this town school which had around 400 students. In one year the number of students increased to 500 students . Continuesly fir 4 years I was appointed as. Class Teacher, the main Teacher for lower forms , Teaching Tamil,.Art's,PE, Drama , musicj. Curriculum.I was an athletic Coach at the same time. This same year, in 6 month one of my Colique got married n moved to Cameron Highlands. She was Teaching POL Tamil in a Seckubdry school on Friday afternoons. Upon her yes ever , I applied a d was selected to Teach POL in that school. A dedicated a d caring man was Teaching in that school art , PE and Tamil was the advisor of the Tamil subject n students . He was the main person for POzl.subject. A very soft spoken, well mannered , decent Teacher. I was teaching in that school POL Subject for two months in the afternoon on Fridays . Several times he told me softly, teacher you are still very young, old join university n.oursue degree course, our Community need people like you. Only an educated girl can mould and nurture good younger generations. Men only help their family. Women being the changers of Culture and designers of the Community His wording n utterances were meaning ful and made me to think . No one advice me or told me to join university other than my 4 th brother who introduced University of London's external program to me. Which I applied and unable to.pursue due to family commitments n insufficient expences which were beyond my income..

A Special Spiritual Trip in 90ies

Year 1997 was an unforgetable year , the reason. I joined the Hindu Yathra trip Organized by the youth association of Teachers group. In this group Several husband and wife Team, n pairs joined and then several secondry School boys, brought their , muslim and Christian friends al ong. I was asked by one of my collique and the most senior man in this group to join this yathra of 3 days. Friday, Saturday and Sunday visiting the Northern states Hindu Temples. Our stay was in a Ashramam.known as Lakshmi Dyana Ashramam in Lunas Kedah. an Ex English Teacher started this Ashramam, on his mothers land. Countless of Secoundry school boys were staying in this ashram and most of these boys are from problem families.Our journey started early morning in southern Perak. Our breakfast was at Pillayar Temple in Taiping. idli ,Tosai with Chuttni Vegetarian.meals Sponsored by Temple Cimmitte.members. Brwakfast and lunch on the first day served at Tw Temples we.were visiting. Dinner and early.morning breakfast was prepated by the Swamiji of the Ashram we stayed. Very clean and beautiful Ashramam it was. late breakfast, lunch and Tea were served at the Temples we were visiting. This spiritual journey of 3 days has given.me a very beautiful experience and, gave mw a chance to check my self self , family life and about my kids their family .their future.

Precious moments in years/ life

6th October 2023, thiscday os a very soecial day in my.life, becayse my birtjday was cekebrated as I wished. Great food, outing with family, cookies abd cakes bought by hubby abd daufhter, as My choice. if life long i have been given choice since young, life wiykd hv been a paradise. Since young, fiid , ckothing, outing everything as beem the olders choice n wish, but after 60, life and events are as i wish n as as I like. Wjen surre der our sekf to otbers n.let tjem de ide thats how life wud hv been as hiw they wished. But tje.life l live now vased on my Cjoice n.as I wish n.request.. when some gets everything as they wished since young, my.life is as I wished, whem.im away frm my Siblings. I hope only my wishes n hopes surrounds me..